Numb

You were our future
The best of what would come
I can’t see it anymore
I feel too numb

Nothing seems real
Are you really gone
It’s been two months now
And two months too long

I look at your prints
And examine your things
I don’t really care
About life in between

Your bed is beside me
Every night without fail
Your ashes lie in it
This is my Hell

Sympathy cards displayed
Through out our home
As sweet as the notion
We’re here alone

Your Nursery was ready
With comfort and surprises
I get lost in there
It wasn’t meant to be lifeless

Was this your destiny
Just nine months with me
Or was something wrong
Something no one could see

I question this daily
And hourly it seems
I want you here in my arms
Not just in my dreams